My Dear Jonathan

My Dear Jonathan

Monday, June 20, 2011

After three years when someone asks me how many children I have I say three. Never had a problem telling anyone that I have a child who has passed. Until two days ago. I was asked how many children I have and I said two. I didn't even mention jonathan. Not once. I feel like complete crap for doing that. I feel like Jonathan thinks I have forgotten him. But I haven't, I just felt like I didn't really want to go thought the whole story. We were having a good day and my kids were happy and having fun. Why would I turn it into a sad day?
Here I am defending myself and I don't know why. In three years I havent had any guilt or felt like I needed to explain anything but why now? I'm sorry Jonathan, I will never make that mistake again. I miss you and will never forget you.