Move On!!

You are not alone. Your child is not forgotten and you will survive…one breath at a time. We are here...............would be the words of many other grieving parents!! These words make me feel even worse. I mean why in the world would I want anyone to feel the same way I do, to have the same pain I have, or to sometimes walk around in such a daze as if I'm lost in fog. I never wanted to be part of this "bareaved parent" group and I sure as heck didn't wish it on any one else. Who wants to feel numb, lost, out of control, crazy and exhausted? These are just a small amount  of the things parents of angels feel and go through. No matter how much counseling we have or how many meds we take, our children are still angels. People say "go to counseling" , "get put on something" , :move on". Funny thing is going to counseling and taking meds doesn't mean we can move on. I myself have done an awesome job at moving on or atleast I think I have until I need to go more than 10 miles away from my home with out my children. Then it all begins. I'm a complete mess, and I cant "move on". So to those of you that say "move on".......I want you to think of something that hurt you so much you thought your life was over and then multiply that feeling by a trillion, then come find me and tell me how you "moved on" on from that agonizing pain!!!