How is it that one day I'm fine and the next I'm walking around like a zombie? I seriously cant handle the mood swings that come a week before and a week after. I don't know how I have managed to do this for three years. No one should ever have to do this. I miss my son so much that the pain is sharpening by the hour. ...................and as I just typed that last sentence I looked down at the clock and now know why it is. The horror that I know have to relive every year will begin in one hour.